being fatherless isn't limited to a father being physically absent or dead, but also if he really isn't being the rather he was created to be and performing his role properly.
the fact that he isn't the role model he needs to be in your life but is "mean and emotionally neglectful" as you've said means there's a place in your heart that longs to be filled with a true father.
in this you share with the millions out there that long for a true father to be there in their lives.
i'm here to tell you you're not alone.
i do hope that your father wisens up and sees his responsibility and the precious gift he has been given.
meanwhile, feel free to share your heart here and with God who is the Father to the fatherless
I'll pray for you and feel free to note me if you wish to talk or post message on group